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An original piece by Bakti Yudha Suryana

Halt

My eyes’ sight, yet I keep seeing

My heart ceases beating, my lungs stop breathing (in an instant)

It is your body that is torn asunder (I witness death)

Yet it is my soul that stops living (I experience ‘death’)

Stare

To where your body lie under

The smell and sight of soil, freshly dug (blinding)

The sound of leaves, softly rustling against the wind (deafening)

It leaves me but one imprint (maddening)

That you are not here, not again (not anymore)

Ask

Why?

You who painted me a new life (to live)

You who melted me from the ice I once was (to be warm)

You who left me, once again (it is all over)

Shiver

As the reality sinks in

The caress of gentle wind

It pricks and stings on my pale skin (it hurts)

Now that you are gone (It’s lonely)

My world has lost its color (eternally)

Say

With my gaze towards the setting sun

With my heart’s a void, my soul’s hollow

In this world you’re no longer in

“Wait for me.”

And so...

“I’ll be there soon.”